For all the things I'm losing

Requested Enrollment Date: Fall Semester 2009
Application Type: Non-Traditional- Freshman
Application Status: Decision Made
Decision: Accepted
Degree: Bachelor of Science
Major: Biological Science


Imagonna be a college student!

I have a job, I start on friday. I'll be working at the midtown massage envy starting off at Mon 10-4 and Tue/Wed/Fri 3-10, which should let me go to school pretty easily assuming they accept me and I can get financial aid, I should be finding out about that fairly soon.

Please take a moment to read this article about a push to get some funding for science: http://blogs.discovermagazine.com/cosmicvariance/2009/02/04/making-sausage/
or an even briefer moment to just click here and fill out a form letter to nag our congressmen about supporting it. http://www.congressweb.com/cweb4/index.cfm?orgcode=apspa&hotissue=81

After a few months of total lack of success on the job search front, I've decided to try and see if I can scratch out my meager living on my own. I have a few recurring massage clients already, a few more and my bank account might just stop red lining! :D Please check out my website at http://zephyrusmassage.com and give me any constructive feedback you have. Any paying referral will get you half off a service for yourself as well. And if any of you who have received massage from me would like to give recommendations I'd appreciate that as well. Thanks!

Oh I'm concerned, I'm not apathetically a non voter, I'm a conscientious objector.
In good faith I can no longer vote with the people after the last election and them passing the "defining marriage" amendment into our constitution by an 80% margin even in supposedly "liberal" counties. I do not feel I can pretend the system works at that point.

We are in fact wolves voting the sheep for dinner
And is the sheep smarter for voting no or not voting?
He's going to get eaten either way, but at least one way he can say he didn't pretend he didn't know it was coming.

I don't feel I'm being overly dramatic after the people showed so willing to deny equal civil rights to people they felt weren't spiritually up to their standard. I feel like participating in this corrupt system even to supposedly try to change it is a moral compromise I am unwilling to make. Fairly akin to "if someone is holding your two kids at gunpoint and says to choose one to live or both die, what do you do?" the correct answer in my mind is to refuse to choose.

"A form of political behavior marked by obsessive preoccupation with community decline, humiliation or victimhood and by compensatory cults of unity, energy and purity, in which a mass-based party of committed nationalist militants, working in uneasy but effective collaboration with traditional elites, abandons democratic liberties and pursues with redemptive violence and without ethical or legal restraints goals of internal cleansing and external expansion." We may not quite be to that point yet, but I feel we are beyond any attempt to prevent it.

Well, I saw a lawyer to file bankruptcy today, first step in getting on with my life. She said I should have no problem filing chapter 7, and should have no trouble getting student loans afterwords. My goal is to be in university by next fall.

I am really getting tired of people being too afraid of being hurt to dare to try to be happy. I just wish I could find someone who's romantic, but also bold. Someone who's so determined to be true to themselves that they can't help but be true to others. I hear women complaining so often that they can't find a guy who's both sensitive and strong willed, but you know it goes both ways.

"If I am I because you are you, and you are you because I am I, then I am not I and you are not you. But if I am I because I am I and you are you because you are you, then I am I and you are you." -Rebbe of Kotzk

As most everyone already knows, I'm home now. Got home on Friday, been trying to recover since. :D I've uploaded the trip photos to flickr, you can see them here